One cannot travel the Journey God sets us on without it!
One cannot travel the Journey God sets us on without it!
Read JOB 23: 10-14 ~ Vs 14 especially spoke to me this week.
One never knows what a day might bring, but there are those of us with chronic disease(s) that KNOW the JOURNEY isn’t always straight and/or smooth.
This year I set goals with God as I did last year – edits of so many pages during the months of March, April, May and writing so many words during the months of April, May and June. Since I’m also a freelance critiquer, I had to set some hefty goals to include the numerous crit jobs I have ahead of me and the hours and hours added to my other tasks in the desk chair.
That was only a very small part of my annual goal-setting but it’s a significant amount of the pressure I face to get writing-related things accomplished.
As I set those goals with God He reminded me how often I tend to slack off on my personal, alone time with Him and how it was beginning to affect my communication with Him and adversely change how well I managed the goals WE had set. OUCH!
Therefore I set a personal spiritual goal to get involved in a Bible study with a friend. God worked that out immediately, connecting me with a dear friend from my past (not the first time he’s done something like that), and He gave us an older study that Charles Swindoll did on his radio ministry years ago. INTIMACY WITH THE ALMIGHTY – Oh boy – We had a dozen studies to choose from, but that’s the one my dear friend said would help her the most, and I had to admit it was tugging at me as well.
We had our first meeting and the introduction discussed the topics we’d be faced with. The first one would be SIMPLICITY – ok – I’ve simplified my life to be able to devote lots of time to writing and its related activities. I’d included the time alone with God I knew would be needed.
But, a week ago yesterday, I met with my rheumatologist,and he informed me it was time to CHANGEmy habits. SAY WHAT?
He blasted me with the fact I was manifesting symptoms of the chronic diseases this body carries and doing so in such a way that it’d only be a matter of time, and I’d be back to sleeping more days away than experiencing them, that I’d be using my cane again, and the pain would once more be excruciating and unmanageable. SAY IT AIN’T SO, DOC.
I’d done so well since the early Spring of 2008. I’ve been able to live a near-normal and exciting lifestyle since God’s intervention and connections He gave me that year. BUT here I’m faced with the probability that it’s all going to crash around me. I knew the fatigue had reared its ugly head and caused me to take naps like I did as a child – only – more willingly. I’d noted the increase in pain and brain fog. I’d recognized changes in my stamina. I just pushed it off and away. I didn’t have time to deal with it again. I was NOT going backward. God had a plan for my writing. After all, He’s the ONE who called me to do it and gave me a story I argued with Him about writing. I’d surrendered to that story and His will. He’d given me words that flowed and even added two other stories to make it a trilogy. He had a plan and that meant I had work to do.
The doctor told me I would have to go back to the MEAL-PLAN the wellness consultant had given me 2008 AND I’d no longer be able to sit for HOURS at my computer. You’ve Got To Be Kidding Me ~ but for every two hours in the chair I’d have to get up and walk – either the treadmill or outside and he preferred I do it outside – for a full fifteen minutes. YIKES!
I nodded my head in the doctor’s office while kicking and screaming in defiance inside.
After all, I’d not kept up with all I’d wanted to accomplish as it was. How on earth would I be able to go back to weighing and measuring foods that had to be purchased separately from that for my husband? How would I manage to take the time to fix his meals and mine (he won’t eat the way I’ve been told to eat) and have time to do the writing, editing, critiquing, teaching, and I haven’t even mentioned the housecleaning and other homemaking jobs. I had all kinds of excuses to dish out to God about the changes crashing down on me. He gently reminded me He would NOT allow me to ignore the issues any longer.
I did the study last week for my Friday meeting with my wonderful, praying friend. You can guess what the main theme was ~ DISCIPLINE. ~ That’s right. Bringing my body, soul, heart, and mind under submission in EVERY WAY to please the LORD to obey His desire to keep me productive for HIM.
Peace flooded me, overwhelmed me, saturated my soul when it struck me how He’d AGAIN connected my JOURNEY DOTS.
None of this has taken Him by surprise. He knew my stubborn streak and contrary thoughts.
1. -He brought my dear Pat back into my life for just such a time as this, and when I just thought I wanted to do a Bible study to be held accountable for truly delving into His Word and spending time with Him.
2. -He knew what study He’d be prompting us to do.
3. –He knew what my body most needs and what to tell my doctor to ORDER me to do.
It’s difficult to swallow the idea that my life will always be DISCIPLINED in such specific and tough ways.
Whether I FEEL like it or not; Whether I like it or not; Whether my prayers are answered YES or NO.
I must be controlled by the Spirit and to do so I must be subject to the DISCIPLINES He sets for me.
1 Timothy 4: 7b -8 says;
Discipline yourself for the purpose of godliness; for bodily discipline is only of
little profit, but godliness is profitable for all things, since it holds promise for the
present life and also for the life to come. (nasb)
There can be NO detour in my personal JOURNEY TO JOY when it comes to DISCIPLINE. It’s going to be a constant, in order to produce the peace and joy I so crave in Jesus. To accomplish the call He’s placed on my life, I no longer choose to ignore the difficulty but embrace it as all a part of the WORK toward BLESSING IN THE JOURNEY.
Praying, God will bless each of you in your own personal Journey To Joy ~
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